tumblr

The REAL Reason I "Quit" The Porn Industry And Initially Deleted My Blogs




The only reason why I am speaking on this particular topic is because I feel like I owe my loyal starz an explanation as to what has been going on with Luckey and the blogs. I have spoken about this very topic several times but I couldn't really spill the tea like I wanted to.

Initially this blog started out as The Luckey Star back in 2011. By 2016, I just wasn't feeling it anymore. Even with the relaunch of the site (The Star Report) I felt like I couldn't speak my mind like I wanted to. At the time, I had several people in the industry that I was connected to and I felt like I could not express my true feelings and opinions because I was afraid of "rufflin' feathers".

The truth is bloggers like me get a lot of flack for having an opinion and a platform. I never thought of this blog as being the "TMZ/Wendy Williams/MTO" of porn but many people do and I have to accept that. I didn't set out to be popular or liked and if you REALLY want to know the truth although models and producers do reach out to me from time to time in reference to whatever is said on the blog or maybe a possible plug, I DO know now that they are NOT my friends.

Whether I like it or not, they all do look at people like me as a threat. Ironically someone within the industry had to point that out to me..



I did call a lot of them friends and found out the hard way and dealt with a few sociopath narcissists realizing their sole motive was to use me for my platform and ultimately destroy me. The fact that I dared speak the truth about what really goes on behind the scenes of the adult industry in general and chose not to simply glorify the industry, lowkey pissed people within the industry off.


There were some people within industry who appreciated my honesty and content but a lot of them were not too happy with me. Some individuals took the approach of pretending to be a friend while others boldly let me know they didn't appreciate it. Lowkey, they felt some type of way because they were guilty of some of the stuff I mentioned on the blog. I was blowing the whistle...

Even after working with models and behind the scenes on productions, I was able to witness a lot of faggotry and it never really set well with me. Just like ANY industry, if you are not IN you are an outsider. Truth hurts and it's unpopular.

In addition to that I was dealing with personal issues including caring for and dealing with the illness and untimely demise of my best friend of ten years. I was fighting substance abuse addictions and depression. 2014-2016 was not a good period for me.

I said in the past that I thought the industry was getting stale. Studios were shooting the same models and overexposing them. It got repetitive and clearly I was bored and distracted.

By the end of 2016, I had reach my breaking point.

Now I won't play victim nor will I claim to be a victim because I am sure I said some shit on the blog that rubbed some people the wrong way. I wasn't a saint in my friendships with some of these individuals but at least my intentions whether good or bad were genuine. I can't say that was the case for their end. I participated in gossip and cliques (although they hated each other in the end..). I got caught up in the wrong circle of friends.

I don't brag often but I would like to think that I am responsible for taking part in the success of models and studios alike. I know this because before I ever mention their names on my platform, no one was checking for them. I even got flack from you guys because you  all felt like I was playing favoritism to them because of my association with them and I will admit looking back that maybe I did because I did see them as a friend and REAL friends support each other.

After months of isolation and therapy I realize that I will always be a threat as long as I have this platform but I have to be true to myself and this blog. I don't care if one don't like me or particularly care about what I have to say. They STILL following my every move and lurking around as we speak so apparently they care enough.

One lesson I learned is you know who your real friends/supporters are when you are down..pay attention and take notes. 

 I do plan to talk about the adult industry from time to time and as usual if I don't have much positive shit to say about it I won't speak about it at all. I am not promoting studios or models unless I genuinely support their work myself. The ONLY reason why I choose to speak on the BIR scenes is because I am a fan of XL, Chino Blac and Romance. I will continue to educate and share my experiences good or bad whether people like it or not. 

CB